Dec 28, 2008
Hello,
Im not even sure how to ask someone for help? and its even harder to write what I am about to.... I am 40 years old and was sexually abused by my brother when I was a child and also remember a time with my father ( as time goes on I seem to be remembering more) Everything in my life seemed ok though, I am a strong person and seem to be able to handle anything. I have 3 children, 2 boys and 1 daughter. When my daughter was 4, I found out that my nephew was abusing her. I went to my sister calmly and wanted to speak with her about it in hopes that we could save her son, maybe he was curious, etc.....at this point I wasnt really sure what all had happened with my daughter, and no one knew anything about my sexual abuse. Well to make a long story as short as possible, My sister and nephew came to my house and screamed at my daughter and called her a liar, and me a liar.....my family which consist of 7 children have all (starting from my brother and father) made me out to be a liar and thief my entire life, i now understand why, because just incase i ever said anything about the abuse they could say she is lieing like she always does, believe me i would not hurt anyone and have no reason to lie!.,....
They could believe in their hearts that a 4 year old would lie!
Well now 10 years later.......i swept everything under the rug, didnt talk to my daughter about it thinking it will all go away if we just forget it - i havent spoke to my sister since that incident!
This last year has been hell it my life I have night mares and am remembering eveything about my childhood - im watching my 14 year old daughter turning in to me, she dosent want to hug us or talk to us and pretty much in her world i can see she dosent care about anything, one day i read a couple of her emails to a friend - they were speaking about sex, and her comments were - making love,sex, and f*(*(((( are all the same there is no difference, you think it means someone loves you - this event had taken all of the love god had placed in her innocent little soul and destroyed it and i was letting it happen!
I actually told my husband 2 weeks ago about the abuse - i never spoke a word because i thought he would think i was dirty, i finally didnt care because i really wanted to die, and if he kicked me out i guess i thought it would give me a good enough reason....but guess what HE DIDNT, he cried with me.....we both realize we have to stop the abuse trend - we have very little money, so i went to my parents house and asked if i could speak to my father, his first words were " whats wrong now " i preceded to tell him everything, and asked if between him and my brother and sister, if they would please help us with money (they are all quite well off) I could get my daughter and myself the counseling and help we need...... i was sobbing and he never even shed a tear. I went home he called me 2 hours later and said that he had told my brother what i had accused him of and that he said i was trying to black mail them and the statue of limitations was up and called me a liar and said i was making it all up,and hung up!
I really dont know where to turn, i am asking anyone if they can donate .50 cents anything to help us - my goal is to help others out there just like me and my daughter that have swept it under the table - please if you can....i set up a paypal account the address is
onepersoncanmakeadiffernce@yahoo.com -
Thank you -
i have been reading The Ripple Effect if you get a chance buy the book it will help you all understand!!
